Hope and Loss

Under the awkward silence      2018

Words that I cant say now.

Many things I want to tell you,

But I dont know how.

It would be simple if ties to the past were cut.

Yet still I have hopes for that lost life,

even though all the doors are shut.

I want to move forward to something new.

So here Im reaching an awkward hand,

Hoping for someone like you.

How do I miss you ?       Dec 2018

How can you miss the ones you love?

Are there only two ways?

The sorrow and sense of loss,

when you know they are gone forever.

The hopeful sense of longing,

when you may see them again someday.

The first requires acceptance

of the finality of the loss.

The second assumes the joyful reunion

is possible, even if the day is far away.

Yet there is a third way,

a more painful path.

When they are alive and distant,

when what you had is dead and gone.

You miss them, you hope to see them,

yet the meeting would bring no joy.